My fear makes me very insecure. I take everything too personally.
When I call my friends and they do not take them straight away, I automatically get the idea that they do not want to talk to me, that they are mad at me. I always think of the worst-case scenario in which I have the main role.
I’m afraid of the situations in which there is the slightest chance that someone rejects me. I hate being in such situations. That makes me even more insecure than I already am.
When I think that someone has rejected me, I feel like I’m completely invisible and meaningless. I feel like I do not care about anyone.
Even if I get an answer, I look too deeply into it. I analyze the eventual tone of the message. I wonder what the guy really wanted to say.
Millions of questions pop up in my head: Am I boring? He does not want to talk to me, why did I even send the message?
It does not matter who or in which situation, but I just have to be sure that the person I consider important in my life loves me.
I have to feel safe and loved because it makes me feel relieved. It makes me feel that nothing bad will happen.
On the contrary, the worst will come out of me. In fact, my head will stage a horror story rather than a love story, and I’ll drive that person out of my life just because I’m scared.
My anxiety forces me to think too much about everything. If my friends tell me that they can not make it to our meeting tonight because they are tired or have to work long hours, I will not believe them.
I will not even consider the possibility that they will tell me the truth. I’ll think too much about what they said and come up with an answer: “They do not want to be friends with me anymore.“
My fear makes me pessimistic – if something has the chance to go wrong, it will be.
I always have the feeling that the whole world is against me, that everyone is after me. I feel like I’m so fragile and I can not help it.
It is almost impossible to think positively if nothing works according to your plan.
I’m so awkward in social situations. I never go anywhere where I go. I’m just not made to be like everyone else, like the “normal” people.
It’s so hard for me to talk to people. I barely talk to those I’ve known for years – and certainly not with a stranger in the supermarket.
I always assume that nobody likes me, and everyone wants to be as far away from me as possible.
That’s why I do not like dating.
I never understand if the person talking to me is really interested in me or just nice? Even if she tells me that she likes me, I will not believe it.
I know that it is only a matter of time before she leaves me because she has seen My true self and she does not like it.
My fear makes me disrespectful to myself. It makes me think that I’m not good enough and will never be good enough.
If people around me say they love me or that I’m beautiful, then I do not believe them.
Why would someone think something good about me? It’s just impossible because I’m none of it.
Because of my fear, I can not see how much I am worth. I only see mistakes.