IT’S TIME TO CHOOSE MYSELF INSTEAD OF YOUR FAST-LOVE

Posted: January 15, 2019 by XPOFeed

I’ve decided that I’m done with you. I have decided not to waste any more time waiting for you to return my love.

I decided that I deserve more. I know that I deserve to be loved.

I know that there is someone out there who will give me everything I need, that will always hold me in his arms – not just when he feels like it.

Maybe that’s stupid of me, but I still believe in unconditional love, now more than ever.

Now that you have destroyed my dreams of spending my life with you, I am even more sure that I will find someone who will.

I’m just tired of interpreting your mixed signals. I’m tired of playing this game you came up with. I do not like the rules because they only suit you.

I fell in love with you because I thought you had more in you.

I saw your potential. I have seen that if you had wanted it you could have been almost perfect.

But you have decided to stay the same. You have decided to be a fast-lover. Well, I do not need that.

You were never clear about your intentions.

You never said what you really want. Because if I had known you wanted this, I would never have.

It’s like a pact with the devil – you get everything you want, but there’s always a price. Mine was a broken heart.

You made me believe we could do it. You kissed me passionately and sent me sweet messages.

You stared at me while I was not looking. You slept with me and pretended the next day as if nothing had happened. Friends do not do that.

I have given you the best of myself and received nothing but half-hearted promises and false words.

In fact, the only thing I ever got from you was words, never deeds.

That was not enough for me. I could have waited all my life for you to do what you said.

But fortunately, I had the guts to get rid of you and continue to search for someone who does everything you never did.

What you have never understood is that love does not exist in pieces. Either she is there or she is not.

You wanted me somewhere in the middle. You wanted to keep me in the fast zone by giving me just enough to stay.

You have given me false hopes. That’s why I have no respect for you.

You could have been a man and told me in the face that you did not love me.

Instead, you pretend to reciprocate my feelings.

You tried to deceive me, but you could not fake love. Nobody can do that.

You can try, but you will fall apart at some point because you are not happy to be with someone who is not right for you.

I’ve decided that I deserve so much more than you. I have realized that I deserve the true love you could never give me.

I decided to keep going, even if it hurts me – and it does.

I’ve decided that I should take that risk, because I do not want to spend the rest of my life miserable while I think about what would have happened if I left.

Now I flip the next page of my life and leave you behind.

It’s time for me to write the next chapter of my life – a happier one in which I can finally choose myself.

I chose myself because I do not want to settle for someone who is uncertain about me. I know what I want from love, and that’s not what you gave me.

I do not want a forced goodbye kiss when I leave the house. I do not want text messages you send me just because you think you have to.

That’s why I chose myself this time. It’s because I want everything you almost do to be done in full.

I chose myself because I’m tired of questioning everything you do.

I’m tired of questioning your choices to find the true motive because I know I’m not.

I chose myself because I want to give myself the chance to meet someone who will do things for me – a man who will do things (even those he does not like) because he wants to do something for me.I chose myself because I’m better off without you.

I chose myself because I do not like this version of myself while I’m with you. I do not want to be exhausted and empty, and you make me that way.

Everything negative, what you say hits me right in the heart. Every word exhausted me more and more every day and I do not want to be that version of myself.

I chose myself because I need someone I can rely on and that’s not you.

At the moment I am that somebody and maybe it will be somebody else in the future.

If you push a woman like me to her limits, she will collapse and you will lose her forever.

You will probably regret it, but it will be too late.

I will choose myself every time because I do not want to be someone else’s second choice.

I think I deserve to be someone’s priority because this one will be mine.

I want to be someone else’s girlfriend because he only wants me and nobody else.

I want him to be happy, that we will spend the rest of our lives together.

I’ll choose myself every time because I do not need anyone to hide the fact that we’re together because he thinks he could probably have found someone better.

I want someone who holds my hand proudly and says my name to the whole world. I want someone who introduces me to his friends and family because I care enough about him.

I will vote every time because I do not want to settle for less than I deserve. I do not want anyone who will almost love me.

I want someone who goes an extra mile for me, because I’ll do the same for him. I want a love that brings butterflies in my stomach.

I want a man who is the last thing I think about when I fall asleep, and the first thing I remember when I wake up.

I will choose myself every time because I do not want anyone who does not accept me for what I am. I want someone who loves me the way I am.

I want someone who knows and accepts all my mistakes because he knows that nobody is perfect and that I am not.

I will choose myself because I want someone who is not you.

I will choose myself every time because I want labels and I want to know exactly where our relationship is going. I do not want to hold back.

I have a lot of love in me and want to find someone who will accept them and love me back, just as I will love him.

I want everything to be familiar and pleasant. I want to feel safe and I’ve never felt that way with you.

I’m not sorry I was with you. I am sorry that it took me a long time to realize that we should not be together.

I do not want you to almost love me. I do not need that. I do not deserve it.

Finally, I realized that from now on, I should put myself first.

For so far I have done the opposite and it has taken me nowhere, except in the direction of disappointment, grief and pain.

I tried so hard to make you love me completely, but you almost got stuck.

I am sorry that I did not give up sooner to end these torments in which we both lived.

I’m sorry that I wanted you to stay, and you decided to push me away.

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