2018, it was a pleasure.
It was a long ride with ups and downs – maybe more depths than heights, but it had to be that way. I understand already. I had to learn all the lessons you wanted to teach me.
We, this year and I, had to end it with a bang. Otherwise I would not have learned anything.
I had to lose so many things to appreciate what is coming. I had to reach bottom to learn to become stronger, smarter, and better again.
You made me make one mistake after another because you wanted to teach me a lesson. You wanted me to never do that again.
Now that your and my chapter is ending, I’m not angry anymore.
It was me in the beginning. I could not accept what happened to me. I could not accept that so many bad things came one after another.
I could not believe that everything happened at the same time, like a chain reaction that did not mean to stop.
Now I realize that everything I went through happened for a reason.
All the mistakes I have made have paved the way to a happier future. I just could not see it right away. But I know it now.
I was so afraid of endings. I was afraid to say goodbye.
It meant that something was over, and passing means sadness. It means loneliness. But what I did not see was that something new begins with each end.
Ends do not have to be depressing and hurtful. Ends mean that something else will happen.
Something else means change, and change is good, because after each completed chapter comes another.
And it’s up to me to decide if this chapter will take a turn for the worse than I’ve already felt, or for the better. It is up to us all. We create our own destinies.
2018, you taught me to believe in myself when I was the most insecure.
You taught me to get up and fight when I just wanted to crawl into bed and never get up.
You made me listen to that little voice inside of me that kept saying, “Try, be better, be stronger, make more effort!”
You challenged me and forced me to go beyond my limits to really see what I am capable of.
You got me out of my comfort zone and forced me to overcome my fears instead of running away. I thank you for this.
This year, I’ve learned what it really means to be brave and to take advantage of all the opportunities that I have before me.
I just had to grab any moment that I thought could bring me change. A change for the better.
I’ve learned that you can not get stuck in the past. You have to look ahead because if you do not use the moment that comes, that moment will never come back.
It’s better to do it than miss it and repent it for the rest of your life.
In 2018, you taught me to live in the present, to let go of the past and to look forward to the future.
You have taught me that every mistake I made had a reason. Every wrong move I made led me to something new. I just did not see it then.
2018, the mistakes I made brought me to my bottom, but the power I got made me get away.
Dear 2018, you gave me surprises that I did not expect.
You threw me into a terrible storm where the wind threw me back and forth. You let me ride on emotional roller coasters and destroyed me.
But dear 2018, you also gave me hope, optimism, and the belief that I could survive all the bad luck and bad cards I was given.
For, as you can see, I am here, at the end of another year, waiting to begin another story of the many who are yet to come.
During the turbulent times when millions of things suddenly happen, you have not put me down all the way.
You still decided to show me that there is always a way out, that there is always a solution.
You gave me the power that I never knew I had. You have taught me lessons that I will never forget.
2018, I am sad that you are leaving, because that means I leave the past in the past.
I can do whatever my heart wants. I can pursue my dreams. I can let go of things that I do not want to remember.But in 2018, I’m glad you’re finally over, because that means I can start all over again. I get a fresh start.
2018, thanks for all the mistakes I made. Thank you for helping me become a different person than a year ago.